Grant that I may love rather than to be loved, to understand rather than to be understood…
With a drive and a new goal, Victor returned to his studies. He met Arthur Samuelson Joseph and studied singing. He acted in anything and everything. He read every book on acting he could find. He got an ushering job at the Los Angeles Music Center and watched plays and musicals, met the young and brilliant actress, Alfre Woodard in the amazing (choreopoem) For Colored Girls Who have Considered Suicide when The Rainbow is Enuf by Ntozake Shange. He spent hours alone rehearsing and believing in the power of the actor and the magic of the theater. He looked at the work of some of LACC’s alumnus, especially Paul Winfield, who he was destined to work with and to try to emulate his work ethic and success. Twice before he graduated from the Academy, as it was called, talent scouts tried to sign him to contracts. His mother (Clara Love) intervened both times and told him to complete his education. This led to a series of auditions, which included the Julliard School and a new experimental program in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. At the audition for the University of Wisconsin, Victor had what he describes as an “out of body” experience which led to a brilliant portrayal and an immediate offer with a full scholarship. Victor spent the next three years in Milwaukee. He did not experience anything like brilliance again for several years.
“What could you not accept, if you but knew that everything that happens, all events, past, present, and to come, are gently planned by One whose only purpose is your good? “
– A Course in Miracles
Victor had to be willing to give up everything he ever believed about acting and start from scratch. He admits he was out of his element. He was also dealing with the suicide of his best friend. He was as far away from Southern California’s lifestyle as he had ever been. His classmates had spent their early years in acting camps and knew what classical acting looked liked. They knew who Laurence Olivier, Uta Hagen and John Gielgud were. Victor began to meditate and to spend extra time studying. He also began to question life and death and questioning his purpose. What was his purpose? Through meditation and prayer, he believes he was given information that allowed him to know that his life had a purpose and helped him to get through some of the darker days that were to come.
He developed the belief that if he believed he could, he could. Sammy Davis Junior’s book and the mantra “YES I CAN“ became his mantra too. Because he did not have the skills and because he was Black he did not at first get the age-appropriate roles. He was forced into character roles. At the time he saw this as a curse. But it was a blessing. He was forced to study, he learned how to act. Sandy Robbins and the faculty believed in Victor and they pushed him to believe in himself. Because of the circumstances of his life, he learned how to become an actor. He learned how to find the small nugget of similarity that he shared with his characters and to blow it up like a balloon with life until it took flight and sailed with Victor as its passenger. Victor has wonderful things to say about his teachers, but he credits Hal Scott with teaching him that technique coupled with that something which is individual to each person has would take him to his destiny.